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Mar13

WOO!! There is no holding me back now

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My creative and inspired brain is going crazy. So many thoughts and ideas… dreams and visions…. images and sporadic bursts of WOWness!.. I’m allowing the creative juices and the universal flow just to happen, I feel as if there is no holding me back at the moment.

So many opportunities, experiences, positive messages, many benefits and values. I’m completely overwhelmed and grateful for the feelings I currently have filtering through my body, and it’s something I want to hold onto FOREVER!

About a month ago, I signed up for a 12 week program that will take me on a journey of self discovery. The excitement of the program and the opportunity to deep dive into learning more about myself, the person I want to be and how I want to live my life is something that I’ve been drawn to over the past 6 months. Each week the program brings with it, meditation, yoga, affirmations, activities and a whole lot more as you work through each weekly component and explore your soul, truth and your life. Currently in the midst of week 2, I feel energised, focused, clear, connected and strong (both mentally and physically). I have taken this program and completely run with it, enjoying every aspect and offering. I am soaking up the program, enjoying it to the point of craving the time to myself to do the meditation and the yoga. The stillness and the ‘me’ time brings me back time and time again to each and every detail, I’m lapping up the new knowledge and learnings in a very positive way.

Looking back I have been preparing myself for this journey. Getting rid of some of the stale and making room for a new energy, ensuring that mentally I was prepared and ready to give it my all.

My first week bought about opportunities, some big decisions and the appearance of an old *friend* sending wonderful messages about me, which were unexpected but definitely wonderful to receive, also received was the chance to challenge a vulnerability. I’m still being challenged by this but I took the first step forward on the weekend with facing this vulnerability and doing something about it.

This strong pull that I have towards a positive life change, is so strong that my challenge is in ensuring I take my time, enjoy every moment and just allow it to flow through as it should, and to learn and grow from the experience.

I really look forward to the next 10 1/2 weeks, it is going to be marvelous! – and so my journey continues.

I am exactly where I need to be

Kx

Jan21

A point in time

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Just yesterday I found an affirmation that I had written and utilised, a while ago, to help me through a particular lifetime event.

At the time I don’t think I thought of it as an affirmation, but I wrote it down on a beautiful piece of stationery, placed it beside my bed and read it quite a few times each day or when required.

Whilst not a quick affirmation, I found it made a difference as I worked through the situation and helped me to remember those things that you tend to forget when being challenged… Please enjoy and feel free to utilise whenever it’s required:

– I am constantly inspired by those around me, my friends are supportive and beautiful.
I am not defined by what happens in my life, but how I deal with those things.
I am strong, I am confident and I am important.
I have an awesome life ahead of me, filled with lots of laughter and great memories.
Life is bloody awesome!! –

There is nothing like a little challenge to help you realise how lucky you are and what an awesome person you are.. Perhaps just at the time you may not think it, but when you come out the other end, you certainly know it.

Kx

Jan14

Where does the time go?

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It’s been months since I have sat down and updated my blog.

I love to write, love to think, love to grow through words and thoughts… Love to read. My challenge at the moment is finding the time. My teenage daughter keeps me busy, so does the house and work and staying in touch with family and friends. I constantly battle with wanting to find time to myself to be able to reflect and put thoughts and ideas to paper (or the computer screen!). How do other people manage to have that balance in life where they get to also do exactly what they want to do, what makes them happy and feel for filled? I want to ensure that I grow, learning, appreciate every day and every moment and delight in those small things. I want to be happy and feel content and satisfied with who I am and where I’m heading and currently situated.

This year, 2014, would have to be a year about finding balance and simplicity. I don’t find that my world often stands still as it constantly moves at a great speed.. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining, as I love to be busy. And would prefer to be busy then bored (as I’ve always said), but there needs to come a moment where you just stop and breath, where you are at one with yourself and doing what fills the heart with joy.

I find myself wanting to keep hold of the inspiration, creativity, rejuvenated  and relaxed state that I experienced for a couple of months following my retreat experience. I need to work on getting this back and keeping a hold of it.

As I continue to grow and learn, I am grateful for the experiences that I have and look forward to a more peaceful, less hectic way of life.

Kx

Oct22

5 Blissful Days

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Last month I had the privilege of devoting 5 blissful days of myself to a retreat. This retreat is named ‘Heartland‘, and so began my journey to the, rightfully named, land of the hearts.

In my year of journeys, I find myself wanting to focus and further understand who I am and determine the life I want to lead and what that would look like. So, my mission was to relax and focus on just being in the moment and allowing myself to ponder and think. This was a retreat for spiritual and personal growth and healing, and whilst I always knew I’d get here at some point in my life, here I was, ready to accept it all. I was determined to embrace every activity, every session, every ounce of Heartland.

Having never been to a retreat, I was not sure what to expect. All I knew was that I was excited and curious all at the same time. A little nervous about going this adventure alone, but I was completely at ease the second I drove onto the long dirt track to the retreat center.

From the moment I arrived to the moment I left, I felt completely in awe of the comforts and generosity of Heartland.

I received SO much more from my week at Heartland, then ever expected. The friendships, the stories, the creative arts, the chanting and dancing all made for an unforgettable week. I was completely myself, within my own thoughts and enjoyed every single moment. I meet some of the most amazing and inspiring people, and loved to listen to their stories and to collaborate on all different levels.

What did I learn about myself? That life really is more simple than we sometimes play it out, that I love who I am and I have the capability to be who I want and lead the life that I want, no matter the situation/challenges/events etc.

I learnt that we all live to a certain program and perceptions, that we have the ability to change these and really take hold of life and make it the life that we want to live. Life is full of choices, it’s a matter of choosing the right choice for you and living that out.

Everyone that I met at Heartland inspired me in so many different ways. I look back at those 5 days with the biggest and warmest smile, and am truly grateful for the experience.

The fabulous food, willingness to share and be part of my journey is something that Heartland is outstandingly so committed too, that I would love to think that I can make a trip to Heartland on an annual basis. An annual refresh, recharge and refocus is something I think everyone could do with.
I am truly grateful for making the journey, for the joy, simplicity and reguvenation that I have experienced.
Sep27

It’s ok to move on

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Recently I made contact with an ex-boyfriend. I’m not sure what I was expecting or why I made the contact. Perhaps it was about knowing he was still out there, knowing he would acknowledge me or perhaps testing out my own current thoughts on the relationship.

This is a guy who completely broke my heart. For the first time in my life, I was understanding what a ‘broken heart’ actually meant. The physical pain that is felt, the emotional struggle that needs to be dealt with and the mental anguish that a broken heart puts you through. Oh! the thoughts, the feelings, the senses. I can truly understand how a broken heart can cripple you, have you withdraw and send your life into chaos.

I struggled, and I struggled hard. As a deep thinker, I would recall every event, every conversation, every action and try to determine what the hell happened. Every waking hour is about the relationship, sifting through the history and dealing with the loss of any future plans/goals etc. You spend so much time pulling the relationship apart whilst also trying to put together the pieces, trying to understand what happened (or what didn’t happen) and then struggling with your own self thoughts. You need to readjust plans/goals and how you imagine life was going to be. Your thoughts sporadically bounce between the good, the bad and the ugly of the relationship. One minute you have convinced yourself that it was the best relationship of your life and you can not live without it, the next, you see the parts of the relationship that weren’t happy and are then convinced that you are better without the relationship. This constant too and fro does your head in, and you constantly pray that you wake up and will have no thoughts again of the relationship and that from here your life will just continue. But you can’t ‘just continue’ until you have dealt with it all. At some point in time you have to deal with it. Sure, you could dust it under the rug, hide it in the cupboard, but eventually down the track it’ll come back and need to be dealt with.

What you don’t realise at the time, is that you need to experience all this in order to grow and develop within yourself. The freedom of getting to the other side and watching/feeling yourself move forward and reestablish yourself is just so rewarding.

I now know that I made contact as part of my ‘moving on phase’. To me it felt like a final goodbye, even if the words didn’t say that. I’ve done the tears, I’ve done the physical hurt and the mental anguish and my emotional struggle is now to the point of allowing me to move on. I can move on, feeling no regret, at peace with forgiving what has happened and with plenty of love in my heart to continue with lifes journey.

I am thankful for the opportunity to personally grow and to have the time to understand, not only myself better, but the life I want to live and how I want to live it.

Just because it didn’t last forever, doesn’t mean it wasn’t worth your while – unknonwn

Kx

Sep19

A Journey of Visions

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Imagination gives you the picture. Vision gives you the impulse to make the picture your own – Robert Collier

Where do you start with determining your visions in life? Is it a matter of listing them all out or simply allowing it to naturally  form in your dreams and thoughts?

When I think about it, there are many things I would like to do in life. Are these things visions or goals?

Recently, whilst on my own little journey at a retreat last week, I learnt that there is a difference between a ‘vision’ and a ‘goal’. To be clear I researched the true definitions:

Vision: An aspirational description of what one would like to achieve or accomplish in the mid-term or long-term future.

Goal: An observable and measurable end result having one or more objectives to be achieved within a more or less fixed timeframe.

A vision helps you to pursue dreams and achieve goals. When well defined, a vision will open your mind to endless possibilities and is a way to help you stay focused when times are tough. When you do not have a vision of who you want to be or what you want out of life, then you start to lack drive and your life plays out as an order of events. Visions will help you to be successful in life and will provide you with the drive and motivation to live the life you want to live.

Previously, every year, come new years, I would write out my goals for that year. It could be anything from doing a renovation job around the house to planning a holiday, paying off a debt to how I want to feel throughout the year etc.. Very much varied! I always make sure I mix it up a bit and add something that MUST be done with things that are fun and that I want to do. I feel that doing it this way means that I’m not ignoring those pesky important things that need my attention.

Having been through the vision journey and becoming clear in regards to a vision and a goal. I can now concentrate on exactly what my visions are. For example: I may have a vision to travel the world, experience difference places, people, food, cultures and to dip my toes into as many calming and tranquil waters as possible. My vision may even focus on certain continents, countries or experiences I want to have. From the overall vision I can then set goals to assist with the vision coming to life. My goals could be based on the timeframe, activities and exactly where I want to go.

Understanding what a vision is and how important in life these are, asssits with knowing who you want to be and what life you want to lead.

So, from here, my journey of visions begin.

*Do not put limits on your dreams*

I thank spiritual teacher, Les Dyer, for teaching me the true meaning of a vision.

Kx

Sep18

Beginning of Time

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A world of complete wonder, constant change and awe inspiring personal growth.

All my life I had a feeling that 2013 was a special year. Having been born on the 13th, I also felt 2013 was my year for fun, excitement and adventures. What I didn’t realise, was that this was going to be the most important year for ME ever!

9 months into the year and I now realise the personal growth journey I have been on. A journey of learning who I am, where I come from, how I contribute and what I am capable of. And so begins the ‘Journey with me, myself and I’.

I intend to make the most of this ‘year of journeys’ and ensure that I carefully listen and keep in tune with my truth. Understand what I believe in, the life that I chose to live and what motivates and drives me to be the best person that I want to be.

I want my life purpose to be about what matters the most: To be a great mum, a loyal friend, valued family member and a loving contributor to all those around us.

I thank this journey for the path I am meant to be on and open my arms and my heart to whatever comes my way.

My motto ‘Live, Laugh Love’.

Life is fantastic

Kx